Can't Stop!
I can't stop thinking about my long distance boy friend that was why I can't stop doing things during my free times.
I do not allowed myself to have free time at all. I have to set goals for myself to keep myself busy 24/7 so I am not missing him so much. I am so crazily busy now that I have made myself so tired and exhausted. I singed up for many kinds of community events, volunteer events, planning committee for events, go to gym 4-5 days a week, sign up for races, trying out triathlon, yoga, trail runs, update my resume, getting new job, thinking of changing....dreaming of going for vacation, thinking of leaving my current place and go to where he is now to be with him...... I am so stressed...I am so stressed..... I am suffocated and almost can't breath...
I am not sure where will this end, but I know I will soon driving myself crazy if this doesn't come to and imminent end.
At the end of the day, I don't even know if it is worth it to wait for so long for a person to come home.
You know....we only live once. I will live for myself! Occasionally having loves from others are the bonus for my life.
peace out!
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